Being Alone

Being alone makes me wonder:

Who do you call at the end of your day to unload?

What do you plan your day around?

Where's your shoulder to cry on?

When are you able to stop holding everything in?

How do you honestly get through a day?

These are the questions going through my head right now. I'm so lost it's unbearable. I feel alone when i don't have someone to talk to. That's all I want! Just someone who will know me inside and out and talk about my days with. That's all I've ever wanted! I want to be put first for once...I want to be someone else's number one.

I guess when you've never had to do this since probably around 7th grade...it's a hard thing to do.Especially when it's been the same person since you were 17.

Here's another thing that's bothering me--How come guys can't have friends that are girls? I don't understand what goes on inside a guys head so I'll never get that, but also if there are some guys...then y can't other guys trust them...whatever....I'm over it!

I'll blog later about my exoerience at the Craker Barrel today...that was a first for me!

Prom Back Home

Just wanted to share a couple pictures of my gorgeous LiL SiS Stephy!! Steph just had her Senior Prom this weekend so I drove home for just the day to play paparazzi for a day. Makes me sad that she's growing up so fast yet SUPER excited becuz within a few months this little miss will grace the ISU campus with her presence!!! Steph is coming to ISU in the fall for school and I couldn't be happier that I have one more year to spend some quality time with her. Love my Lil Sis so much!

Anybody else think she should be doing some freakin' modeling? Maybe I'm a little bias?! :)

5K-I Think I Can...I Think I Can!!

I decided on March 24th (last Thursday) that I'm going to run a 5K on April 9th!! Whoo!

This required me to run 1.5 miles that day and my first whole 3 today! I ran my whole 3 miles in almost exactly 30 mins...and I walked pry 1/2 the last mile! So I have a feeling I'll be definitely ready for the 5K on the 9th!

That weekend I'm driving home after classes on Friday at 3...Visiting with G-ma...probably catching up with Jenny before running in the morning...going to bed early...then Race Day! On Saturday I'll run at 8:30 am then chill for a little while maybe get a nap in...then drive back to Ames...get ready and go to work! WHEW! It's gunna be a long haul that day! :) Can't Wait!

On another subject...I have an interview at the Hilton Garden Inn with the Banquet Coordinator! This is super exciting to me because it would be a different job than I've done before! Also the location is close to my sister's apartment in Des Moines! :)

So wish me luck on my new adventures and good luck to ya'll on yours!!

Last Night in a Nutshell

So as requested by Jake here are my "thoughts" on last night.

Yesterday started with Beverages class...having a good time in class...just at the point where I realize it's hitting me hard...I get handed the 5th bottle to open....Awesome! It took everything I had to not make it obvious that I was getting drunk. Opening that bottle was a great accomplishment in itself! So class gets over and I'm tanked. I haven't drank for 2 weeks....and I'm ALWAYS a light weight anyway.

B picked me up and we ate at Cocos which was all a little fuzzy. Then we went to Cyclone Liquors and went to the wine tasting for class...where we talked to Cale -(he works there thank god! I might need him to refresh me on some of the wine I tasted!) Then I came back home and showered and got ready to go out...which required me to finish an old bottle of wine in my fridge and play Wario Smooth Moves for a little bit. While Jodi laughed at how dumb this game is! :)

B picked me up after his meeting and we picked up Grant and headed to "the bars" aka Sips of course! We got a beer tower for B ad Grant and I got a new mug with a Long Island in it. My first Long Island actually.

When we first get there one girl from a few of my classes is there celebrating her 21st. Her friend is at the bar getting a mug...and of COURSE this girl at the bar knows B because he goes to perfect games with Cale and she works there or something I don't really know or really care....anyway...they talk or whatever blah blah blah! So were at our table and I'm standing next to B while he's sitting down...and Grants on his other side. I have leaned in at this point for numerous kisses and hugs from B...Lets just say it's obvious he's here with me at this point...anyway...we re-situated and Mitch showed up (B's other friend) and now Me n B are across from each other and Grants to my right and Mitch is to my left.

Me and Grant are having a lovely conversation. B is bouncing around from bar to table...but finally sits down for awhile...This BROAD has the balls to walk to to B and start not only talking to him but touch his arm n stuff...so I turn my attention to glaring her down dramatically...Grant notices but keeps talking as to not make it seem like that's what I'm doing...but I'm being drunkenly obvious and I hold up my hand and tell him to hold on I'm busy....So I continue to glare her down...as of right now Grant's terrified and glad...terrified I'm gunna jump across the table and glad there's a beer tower in the middle of it in my way! :) So she finally walks away and I'm beyond jealous drunk gf stage...BUT me and Grant continue talking until they decide to go play some pool. We go over there and I had to pee so I go and run into Lacey--the Birthday girl from my class--n we go get her a shot (after peeing of course) at the bar from Tom. She said they're going to Cy's for pitchers. I tried to tell her to talk to Melvin, who's the manager there...but she's 11 sheets to the wind and can't quite understand me to I'm like lets tell ur friends...who does she run me over to but that girl! So i'm trying to save face and told her to talk to Melvin when they get to Cy's because he's the manager...THIS BITCH turns around and is like "why? Doesn't he work here?"...I'm like "No he used to but now he manages Cy's." She then Flips her hair and give me the cold shoulder. So I buy Lacey her shot and go on my way. Even tho at this point I'm to drunk to care and want to throw the bitch to the ground.

Anyway my whole point to this story is here are my feelings about this....

Anger-because I wanna kill her.

Frustration- because I don't know where me n B are actually. which means I don't wanna ruin this for him if she really likes him...but I WANT HIM and he's mine bitch! Which I'm not scared to show if I know that's what B wants.

Pissed off- beacuse I know she just did that to piss me of...ya I know it worked!

Whatever the whole thing pisses me off because girls are dumb that's it end of story! WHY did she do that...to piss me off. Ya well what she really did, unbeknownst to her, was give Bradley a false sense of-O I can be single and get girls I don't need Jen and that relationship crap. Awesome! Thanks a lot bitch! So here's where I am stuck between either were together or were not there's no more just we are what we are because I'm getting the crap end of this deal! I didn't know when he's going out every weekend meeting chicks n acting completely single (boys are just as dumb) You can't have both.

So yep there ya are...my thoughts and feelings for today...well ya there's also that feeling of death...the actual thing not feeling like it...that comes along with your first long island...which for the record I finished outta my new mug!

Last Weeks View

This what I just experienced last week. Beautiful Puerto Rico! I'm glad I went and had the time of my life! This trip just made me want to travel everywhere now!

Puerto Rico...Here I COME!

Hello Folks...exciting news to report!
I am going to Puerto Rico! I say this is unofficial because I have to buy my ticket tonight! Yes that's right no ticket yet. I decided on tuesday that I was goin to go even if it killed me...so this required a lot a fanagaling to get the job done!
First was telling to mom...yep try calling your mother on a tuesday and say "Hey mom I'm leaving to Puerto Rico in one week" She was excited because obviously we've known abotu this trip for awhile...just didn't think I was going. Long story...Anyway...
Second was my license...it's a paper one because I didn't think I was going and forgot that the "real" licenses take awhie to get here now. So that came in the mail today. TODAY people!
Third was my job...yep I was supposed to work the 16th 3:30-cl, 18th train 4-cl, 19th 4-cl, and 20th 4-cl. Went in to work yesterday and switched my training day and found a replacement for that wed (the 16th)...found a replacement today for saturday...and still waiting to see if Kelly might work my sunday...but sunday isn't a curcial day they would need a replacement.
Fourth is my 383 Exam. I called Burger on wednesday because I was just going to go in there at like 10am, but called to make sure that was a good idea...instead he informed me that making an appointment to talk would be best. Well he sented me and appt. requests and it was for friday...umm....so I emailed him back informing him of why I wanted to meet with him and that it involed moving my test...so I will have that formally figured out after class today. The last thing holding me back from buying that ticket is this test!
Wheeeeeew! This has been a hell of a week on top of this excitement! Now it's on to buying a dress and swimsuit!

Sorry about spelling errors was too excited to care! :)

Bring it on!

This is my week...

Monday

-Test in AESHM 342

-Lots of homework for AESHM 311

Tuesday

-After classes going to DM to get shirt (that I left at KT's) for the Career Fair

Wednesday (busy Day)

-Class at 9

-Career Fair at 12

-Class at 2

-Work 3:30-8ish

Thrusday

-Study in library all morning for...

-Test in Acct.

Friday

-Test in JLMC 220

-Work

-GOING OUT!!

....in a nutshell. Hope your week is going well. I'm keeping a positive attitude about this week or I'll never make it out alive!

On an unrelated note...a week from today is Valentines Day which will be the first time in 5 years I have been "technically" single! Whoa!

A Few Random Thoughts

Riding the bus to and from campus everyday this week (sometimes 2x's in one day) gave me a lot of time to think on my travels. Here are some of my random bus thoughts for you all to enjoy:

* Personal Hygiene

-This is a requirement for riding the bus. In particularly when you sit next to someone the whole way home even with empty seats open halfway there. Under this category falls things like taking showers, brushing your teeth (and either not yawning your bad breath on me or keeping your breath under control), putting on deodorant, clean clothes are appreciated as well as controlling long hair that is not groomed well.

*Chewing gum

-This is a privilege that is given to responsible well mannered adults. Not douchebags that chew with their mouths open, tongue rolling around making annoying to others. Grow up.

*Headphones

-These are for PERSONAL use ONLY! Headphones were invented so that I don't have to listen to your music selection and I can peacefully listen to mine. Please turn your music down or I will glare at you the whole bus ride and make you as uncomfortable as you are making me!

A lot of those things obviously have to do with the fact I have been riding the bus a lot more lately and observed some things that make me not want to ride it that much anymore. This was just a glimpse of "a ride in the mind of Jennifer". For more random thoughts please feel free to ask I'm usually not to shy about telling people what I'm thinking...once I've been asked.

It's Been Awhile

This semester is flying by me. I keep telling myself to get on the ball becuz once spring break gets here I will be completely worthless as usual! :) I like my classes ( I say at as if I had a choice on what to really take) my classes are basically whatever i have left in HRI to graduate next May.
A lot has happened already this semester. (Besides me putting away my x-mas tree that is still hanging out in our apt.)

Last weekend I went out Friday night for the first time this semester with Izzy (and her bf n friend), Julianne, Mitchell, and B (of course). It was fun. I go to Sips a lot more becuz B's roommate is the manager n a bartender...which means I get awesome drinks and know people there. I also love to dance and love dancing there even early like when nobody is there becuz I have the whole dance floor to myself! :) Julianne drove us home which was much appreciated that night! Thanks to you again!!

Saturday after working I went to Des Moines to visit Katie. We went and saw Olivia at Brian n Nicole's which was nice becuz then I had her all to myself and got to play with her a lot! :) After that we got dressed up and went out to eat at some Brewery I can't remember the name of downtown. Eric n Staci came to meet us and we sat there talking until about 11:30 (which is waaaay past my current bed time of about 10pm). It was awesome just talking to them and seeing Staci's baby bump! :) We attempted to go to a few bars but got to cold and tired so that'll be another adventure some night.

My mom came down yesterday with a dresser from home for KT so I drove down behind her and stayed there again last night. It was great becuz mom made her Chicken Tetrazzini...YUM! We carried in the dresser n I kinda helped mom sand and paint it a little before I had to leave this morning.

In other news Jodi n I have resigned our lease and will be roommates again next year which is great. I have finally gotten my room clean which has been on the list of things to do since before break (Yes I know I'm sure Jodi was just as embarrassed as I was). I have also bought Zumba which has only led to Jodi and I procrastinating even more with the Wii. (Also Party Games, and Mario Kart are not helping the situation).

All in all it's been a good semester so far and have no complaints. Hopefully that will be the trend and keep going!

O I almost forgot to mention that Tuesday...after I left the MU becuz on the tv the were talking about banning texting and walking in big cities....I was texting while waking to Mackay and KICKED A SQUIRREL...yes you just read that...I didn't see him and kicked him...pretty sure it scared the crap outta both of us!

So keep ur eyes up for the sake of those squirrels on campus who do not move outta the way!

New Year Same Shit

So yes it's a new year yet I'm still dealing with the past becuz I'm still in college. Let me explain...NEVER start out at a community college unless you have ur shit together! Either you are going there for a program (such as Dental Hygienist or Occupational Thearpy Assistant) that I understand. I will NEVER tell someone to go get their gen eds there every again unless they know where they wanna go next or what they wanna do for sure. It is not cheaper becuz you end up at a four year anyway or in one of those programs so there's already some years on top of ur 2 years. O lets not forget I went for 2 f-ing years and still didn't have my AA becuz I asked 4 f-ing times to meet with a type of advisor and they kept telling me I couldn't becuz I don't know what I wanted to do (duh y I need the help f-ers) I finally met with one to see if I could finish in one more semester and she was a bitch becuz I had to pretend I wanted to do something medical to see her becuz my roommate was her assistant and got me the appointment. Hawkeye sucks!! Lets see some other facts....o ok so I let there 17 credits shy of my AA (one semester basically) becuz I wanted to do Dietetics so everyone I talked to just said fuck the AA and go get ur bachelors which doesn't require the AA....NOT TRUE BITCHES!! I get here and o ya I have taken Anatomy and Physiology at Hawkeye....but ya that doesn't count and I would have had to retake it becuz o ya you didn't get ur AA so it didn't count! R u f-ing kindding me....So there went Dietetics becuz fuck if I'm going to retake that shit for a major I wasn't happy with in the first place. Also who the fuck would put a student in Chem 177 and 178 that hasn't had Chem since junior year of high school (need I remind you I went 2 years at Hawkeye before this) that's right my advisor. So I crapped all over Dietetics before I could even enjoy the classes that are in that major basically becuz the bullshit of college and that f-ing classes the make you take.

On to my next issue with college...o ya i also to a Western Civ class from this f-ing Russian guy at Hawkeye, but you think that will count towards anything without my AA...you guessed it! So I'm repaying for classes I already took at Hawkeye here at ISU....not only am I gettting charged an arm and a leg for these classes...Hawkeye already took the other arm and leg years ago so pretty much throwing me in a year out into the big pond of life is just going to drown me becuz I have any arms or legs to swim with.....thanks Fuckers!!!

--This message was brought to you by and angry college students sick of dealing with the bullshit of college.

Sickums

I'm sickums and of course I hate it. I woke up Saturday with a really bad sore throat, so since I knew there was no way I should go into work with this and spread it...I called the doctor to have a strep test becuz Steph had strep the last time I was home. They took 2 swabs and gave me antibiotic to start taking soooo there goes my two last days of work before break. ugh...better that way than me there tho...I'd be pissed if I knew someone back home came to work like this a spread it to my G-ma.

So I've been chillin' at the apt attempting to pack and clean my room...and it's just not happening. I have nooooo energy and now it's snowy out so I should wait to drive home til tomorrow. Well I hope you all are having a good break...once the 23rd gets here I'll be very happy! :) Happy Holidays ya'll!

How's your day going?

Woke up at 6 without my alarm...that's new....got ready...brushed off my car and drove Jodi n I to our HRI 380...Finished final at 7:54...took Orange 23 bus to commuter lot...decided to go to Panera and get my "free" latte...Not so free because I then got in a minor car accident with a bitchy 59 year old lady...who ruined my day! It was an accident! straight up! Had she NOT laid on her horn I would have clearly made it into the lane in front of her and been on my way but she did and I panicked...breaks went on and smash...O how I hate that sound! I get out to ask her if she's ok...she's already on the phone with the cops not talking to me...then she turns and says "I'm going to be late for my Doctors appt." I apologized up and down trying to be nice...she turns to me again and says "I was honking....didn't you hear me OR WAS YOUR MUSIC TO LOUD?" I about died right there...I know I don't look 23 but r u fucking kidding me! I looked at her and said "NO I WASN'T!" and got in my car to wait for the cop (which was very lovely and nice!) Anyway the accident was $300 damage that's what she was mad about...I officially have changed my views on the elderly...Screw you! if you are going to be a bitter old person then go ahead and be bitter and die by yourself in a nursing home becuz nobody will come visit you becuz ur a jerk! I would have totally understood if there wasn't snow...I totally cut her off on purpose...of if I was snotty to her but I wasn't. She even turned to the cop and complained about the doctors and he didn't even want to deal with her. The only little bit of karma she had was that even tho she was free to leave she COULDN'T becuz I had her blocked in while the cop talked to me for 10 mins! HA!

So I got home finally had to practice a presentation for about 30 mins. Showered...running late...so B gave me a ride back to campus becuz I really didn't want to drive...I go to get out of his car AND all the snow from the top of the door falls on me...B just says "Soooo how's ur day going?" Laughed it off...that was the icing on the cake! Wiped off the snow and went on to my presentation I had to give. Got there and we are now told our teacher that is 10 mins late isn't going to make it until 1pm because she has gotten into an accident too! Glad to see I wasn't the only one today! Kinda made me a little happy inside...once I found out she was ok!

So if you think you've had a bad day come join me tonight for some hardcore relaxation! I hope your day was better than mine and if you went to class and made it home safely then it had to have been! :)

Finals A'here!

Yes finals are definitely here becuz it's 7:40 and I'm at the library on a Monday morning! My only relief if the Raspberry-White Mocha Coffee I got from the hub before the library even opened. I feel like this is exactly how my finals week is going to go....little sleep and little relieves here n there. O well it's one week of my life and then it's break time.

I'm really looking forward to break becuz of the casino on my birthday. I haven't been to a casino yet...yes I know I'm going to me 23 WTF?! Right?....anyway I'm stoked! Birthday the 23rd...Family x-mas the 24th...working on the 25th...then noooooothing!

I suppose I should talk about this weekend (which obviously begins on thursday night). Thursday night was a lota fun in a little package! I started at Welch Ave to see some of the guys like Cale Grant and Tyler becuz they were with B. Long story there if ya wanna here I'd be gald to chat it up in person. :) Then I went to Jake's which was really nice. Adam and Jake are hilarious and great guys! Megan met up with us at Jake's....that reminds me I still have her coat....then we left for Mickey's becuz you know who was there. Yes...the one and only Kelly! We saw here and met up with Ashley at Mickey's then as Jake put it "Our cue to go" came and we left for sips...to obviously get our dance on. Sips was of course not ready for us so we chilled in a booth and got some drinks...B and his guys were there and also my long lost roommate from 2 years ago...Bryn! It was awesome seeing her! I miss her! Anyway Kelly got to sips and started the party becuz as she so wonderfully put it "It's my birthday and I'm going to DANCE!" So we dance with her which was fun...Megan kept telling me she's too white to dance or needs another drink first! :) That made me giggle a lot! Had a shot with Kelly for her B-day...Washington Apples will getcha I guess. I decided it was time to wrap up my night so I left the dancing to Jake and went to say Bye to Bryn and the girls at Outlaws. Cale was still out and ready to drive home being the responsible person he is, so I got a ride home. All in all a fun and crazy night! Definitely should keep up the going out on Thursdays...and since I figure your going to be reading this Jake I'm talking to you! (and Zach n Julianne...where were you two last Thrusday? missed ya!) Anyway this semester has been a big change for me and I'm more than ready to keep the changes coming! Becoming myself has been a great process and I'm not ready to stop now!

Favorite quote (at the moment): You can spend your time on stage pleasing the heckler in the back, or you can devote it to the audience that came to hear you perform. -Seth Godin, Linchpin (good book by the way)

O Christmas Tree

O yes the holidays are here! It's official only becuz I finally put up my tree yesterday instead of writing my paper for class. Yes procrastination at it's best! That was how productive I was this weekend actually. I put the tree up and made PB cookies before going to work. I attempted to go out last night but it was apparently dead week already and a little early so it was an early night last night.

I do need to start x-mas shopping tho...I'm sure my family would appreciate it. :)

Well enough procrastination for tonight!

O ya 18 more days until my Golden Birthday! Super excited found out mom's taking me to a casino yay!

Nucking Futz...Black Friday

Holy crapazoli!! I decided to drive home Thursday after work and got to Oelwein around 9ish. Then decided to go shopping at 3am with mom and grandpa. Since I knew that when I got home I decided to just stay up...I tried to lay down a couple of times and wasn't tired enough or knew I would pass out and have to get up in 30 mins! So 3:30 came g-pa pulled up and my n mom jumped in! Off to waterloo we flew...to Walmart first. We get to Walmart and of course they're a crock of poop and gave their tickets for items out before 5am or put out their 30 waffle makers before 5am. So I waited next to 2 portable DVD players for 20 mins then decided I needed one since I stood there for that long (no i don't need one!) and walked away with 3of them and a travel bag for me! Wheew this aggressive shopping thing brings out the worst in me! Walmart was done and lame so off to Menards where I stood outside in line for 38 mins...20 of which were spent in just a sweatshirt until mom got outta the car and brought me my coat...ya I was a little excited! Menards was NUTS it was a legit free for all! IT WAS AWESOME!! So of course I'm the type of person that gets all anxious in large groups of people and I'm claustrophobic so I'm moving pretty quickly to get our stuff together and get the heck outta there. Yep we finally find the line for the check out...Pretty sure we budged a little to get in it. We wound our way all the way back and forth through the store until about an hour later we were outta there! Now the sun was up and it was about 7:20.

We drove through Mcdees and got home around 8:15. I got in my jammies took out my contacts and passed the fuck out! Woke up around 1pm along with Steph who just went to Pamida in town with dad for a few things at 6am and was asleep by 7am. We got up and she wanted to workout so we went to the wellness center and ran, did some crunches, and I even got to shoot some hoops! That felt pretty good and made me miss playing basketball! :(

It was nice being home Steph went with me later to eat with Grandma which was nice. Slept with Steph and about died becuz her heater was on like over 70 degrees which meant that mixed with our sleeping bodies heating the room made it like feel like 112 degrees in there!! Woke up at 7am and about died of heat exhaustion. Slept in mom's room from 9:30-11 then finally got up today. Got ready and went and saw Steph working n g-ma at the same time kinda nice how that works out. Left with mom and dad for waterloo around 1 today and ate at Wendy's with them. Drove back to Ames and got here 20 mins before I had to work...perfect timing.

Now I'm procrastinating my homework even more by writing this which took longer than it should have...now i'm tired and work at 6:30am tomorrow so Nuh-nite people!!

A Not-so-Break

This so called break isn't really a break for me. Yes there isn’t any classes but I’m still working a lot and am unable to go home becuz of it! My extended family only gets together 3 times a year…Easter, Thanksgiving, and X-mas. So of course I’m a little sad by this. I’m not quiet sure if everyone will be there this year tho. My cousins are getting older and starting their own families so pretty soon we will probably not be having the holidays with my extended family. This crazy to think of to me even tho all my cousins are around their 30’s (but just got married). There are 5 cousins on my mom’s O’Hara side, 3 Hemesath boys and 2 O’Hara boys. The 3 Hemesath boy are NOW all married (two just this last summer) and the O’Hara boys have promising girlfriends. Brian is the oldest Hemesath boy and he has a daughter, Olivia, that will be one in January. This is my grandparents first great grandbaby.

I feel that we still get together as a big family becuz of my grandparents. If it was their choice we would get together for everything. The Hemesath family lives in Hudson, the O’Hara’s in Waterloo (close to Hudson actually) and our family still lives in Oelwein with my grandparents. This is why to me they are like second parents. Wow I should just stop now or I will be going on forever about my grandparents. Here just a little about them they just celebrated their 57^th wedding anniversary on October 24^th. They dated since age 16 tho so really they’ve been together for over 60 years. Crazy, yet my parents are the same way. Dated at age 16 and celebrated their 26^th anniversary on October 26^th. Yep see why there a little pressure to try and make it work with my ex boyfriend of 6 years!! Also my little sister is dating her boyfriend (which they are the exact months apart me and B are apart) and they’ve been together for almost 2 years now. Now that’s crazy! Anyway…

I’m usually the person that goes home asap and want to spend as much time with my family especially my grandparents and yet I’m stuck here alllllllll of break and it’s not looking promising to make it home before school is done for the semester. I feel as if I might be taking a few days off and hauling it home to make up some lost time on this break! J Well hopefully you are all having a lovely break and come back ready for finals becuz I know I am already!

Holy Crap What a Day!!

If you are in tearoom then you know what day I am talking about in my title. Yes this is of course last Thursday!! I went from zero to 10 in about 2 seconds I think about 200 times that day. Let me recap for you.....

That morning I'm riding the bus with my lovely roommate Jodi and we had to wait for the train so the bus had to go a different way to make up the time. Not worried about being late for the 380 test...I feel it is impossible to be late for that class...Anyway!

Get to class feeling pretty confident take my test...of course the second one done...i kinda hate being such a fast test taker yet I have developed a bad habit that once more than like 3 people finish before me i tend to freak out and go faster even tho I wasn't intentionally going fast in the first place! Ugh!! So the test went fine scored ok all was good....

After class I went downstairs as usual and ate my yogurt and granola and chatted it up...Maggie came by to get ready for class and was talking to me about the certification exam I have in HRI 101 so I turned to her and said yep all I need is a pencil and this sheet (as I opened the book to show her the scantron sheet I would need)..FREAK OUT MODE---IT'S NOT THERE! Yep I'm panicking already because I have only taken the book two places besides the class and my apt and have never even touched it becuz I was scared to lose it! So trying to stay level headed I'm just like o the book store will have new books I'll just buy a new one in the HOUR break I have before the test.

So in tearoom I’m a little hazey and confused all day becuz I’m thinking of that stupid piece of paper I don’t have. Zach, noticing that I’m in that funk, keeps telling me it’ll be fine stop worrying and cheer up. I did cheer up a little bit after I ate my cold food becuz of those stupid pies! My mood did get much better just becuz of that I love food! Anyway…

After tearoom I booked it like hell to the MU and sure enough NOTHING THERE! So over to the campus bookstore with no hope left in me…yep she goes to the used section and I’m like “NO it HAS to be new to have the sheet I NEED!” –“O all we’d have are used ones”. Of course being the emotionally wreck I usually am I just break down right there. Get me bag through the tears and walk out.

I call B to see if he might have found it as his place (One of the two places I had the book attempting to study before the test the night before) and he says no, but will come pick me up to run me home and look for it. It’s now about 1:25 (test at 2:10). He comes we fly home, while I’m bawling my freaking eyes out the whole time!! There’s more to that reason if you want to know you can ask me in person. So we get here and run in the apt and are looking for 2 second and B goes “OMG! I saw a bubble sheet somewhere the other day….” Me-“WHERE THE HELL IS IT??!!” B-“In my living room!” So it now being 1:45 I’m freaking out. We call Cale his old roommate from 2 years ago that now lives across the hall and he not only goes in and finds it…He DROVE it to the MU to us and then B drove me around campus and I walked it to take my test at 2:08! HOLY CRAP! What a freaking day!! My eyes are so sore I feel like I had been hit by a bus and all I wanted to do was curl up and sleep the rest of the day away!

Well I went home got in some jammies put on a blanket and my snuggie and took a nap! I didn’t want to move the rest of the day in fear of something else going wrong!!

So for all of you wondering Yes, I got my sheet and took my test! Now I hope I freaking passed it after all that!!!

Frustrated

Lately I have been frustrated. I don't have an exact reason or purpose for my frustration I just am. I have never had a day where I didn't want to talk to people and I had one of those days on monday. Well maybe it's because I don't get to celebrate any Thanksgiving with my family because I have to work. I know this make me frustrated but ya.

Well I know I should write more yet I'm not in the mood much any more. G'nite! :)

CPR

I am officially CPR Certified thanks to my job. :) At first I was the only one taking the class and then Kyrstle showed up which was nice becuz I already know her and it wasn't as awkward when we had to practice the choking procedures on each other. At least it flew by in 2 hours instead of 3 and I'm am done with it.

Tearoom was uneventful today but I'm sure it's becuz I was a table server. WAIT I lied we made up the 12 days of Tearoom song!! It goes as follows:

12-Monster Cookies

11-Lemon Wedges

10- Naked Flavors

9- Broken Teapots

8- Table servers

7- Preset Salads

6- People at a table

5- CRUSTY ROLLS!!!!

4- K-preps

3- Sanitors

2- Merit Workers

1-Well this ones a little confusing...as for the customers they will hear--And a Charlie Brown Dessert Buffet...Us in the class will secretly be singing something a lot less nice!!

I guess we were pretty productive before the doors opened.

Well not much left to say today hope I can get all my homework done!! :)

It's Been Awhile

Like I stated when I started this again I am terrible at keeping up with this blogging thing! :) SO as usual a lot has happened! This week Steph had her college visit to good ol' ISU!! She got to experince the nicest people in the world here at ISU the same way I did when I used to visit B before I became an actual student here. We drove to the commuter lot and got on the 23 orange to Mackay so I could finish my Maitre d'Hotel packet and she could write her comp. paper. We get of at Mackay and as soon as we step foot on the curb by Mackay Steph says "my phone!" and then we turn and watch the bus pull away. AWESOME! She's half expecting me to go running after it which isn't happening, but being the good sister I am I call Cyride and tell them that the bus that's now pry at the library should have a lost blackberry on it. They told me to call back later and see if anybody turns it in. SO for the next hour n a half all i hear about is how Steph's life is on that phone and she isn't going to be able to live without it...while i'm writing my summary for my packet and finishing up costing with Ashley. She's all distraught and complaining until she gets a text on my phone from her friend back home that says "someone has steph's phone and she needs to call it to get it back". Now she's thrilled and I of course call whoever has it and they are in the dorms on campus and will bring the phone to Mackay for her. Then it hit Steph that her phone was completely dead to the point it wouldn't turn on and would have had to be charged to make the phone calls she did! So some girl found her phone either had the same charger or found someone that did and charged it to find the owner! HOW AWESOME!! So that pretty much sold my little sister on how nice people can be here at ISU and she should totally come here. I told here that is what sold me on my decision. I lost my phone here once and didn't know it until my dad was calling my bf to tell me to call someone to get it back! People can be so nice sometimes!

Big Change for me is......I now have a ROOMMATE!! Hell yeeeaa! Jodi as moved in and I'm happy! :) Now it's getting used to having a roommate...No more walking around in my underwear! :D

Well now that I've said that I'll leave you with that scarring image! ;)